ah, these thoughts. they almost feel like an old friend. once forgotten. twice remembered. in a way, that almost sounds good. my little brother is now 363 days old. i don't want to do this anymore, honestly. but i have to stay on my feet. chin up... right? i use to always say that. i wonder how some people are. i think jen now put keith to sleep. i just remembered that i have a current event to do. I'm glad that i remembered. jenna is one of those kinda of people that you just feel like shit if you let them down. so i try not to do that at all. hm, stray thought. if minds, well more like thought. if they had a gps position. because i feel like i have no idea where i am right now. do you ever take a tour of a place where you once been and know well? i just did that to cita's old house. now cita and roy live in rita's old house. i wonder what he's doing right this second. is he helping make dinner with with wife? is he wondering if he;s kids will be pleased with what he got them? is he worrying about me? he shouldn't be. as for the other, i wonder if he's clean and staying out of trouble. blah, i feel like total, and complete (shit). what he once told me is now softly echoing in the back of my head.