Pinch me. =\

i hope all of you are doing alright and content. Goodnight

my room looks bigger now? i threw things out and moved others around. today was alright, jen saw brothers tonight with richie and said it was great. i still wish we were going to pittsburgh =/. but hey sooner or later we'll go. no one is coming up for the holidays this year. i can hear father snoring loudly through my left wall. hey amy. how are you? i wish casey were still around. i wonder if anyone texted me. i havent turn my phone on in days. some would think that, thats a waste. whatever though. i hope it snows like hell. i wonder if jen is still awake. i wonder how robin is. this sint anything like how i would have wrote months and year ago. thoughts much slower and calmer. i dont like it. sounds crazy right? goodnight

ah, these thoughts. they almost feel like an old friend. once forgotten. twice remembered. in a way, that almost sounds good. my little brother is now 363 days old. i don't want to do this anymore, honestly. but i have to stay on my feet. chin up... right? i use to always say that. i wonder how some people are. i think jen now put keith to sleep. i just remembered that i have a current event to do. I'm glad that i remembered. jenna is one of those kinda of people that you just feel like shit if you let them down. so i try not to do that at all. hm, stray thought. if minds, well more like thought. if they had a gps position. because i feel like i have no idea where i am right now. do you ever take a tour of a place where you once been and know well? i just did that to cita's old house. now cita and roy live in rita's old house. i wonder what he's doing right this second. is he helping make dinner with with wife? is he wondering if he;s kids will be pleased with what he got them? is he worrying about me? he shouldn't be. as for the other, i wonder if he's clean and staying out of trouble. blah, i feel like total, and complete (shit). what he once told me is now softly echoing in the back of my head.

hey anyone that still maybe drops in to see if theres anything new in the world of bryan. well... at least it's mine from what i see lol. tony montana. lex, lex, lex. damn. im fine. just reminds me, how when he had the super smart computer guy in his head. he was powerful, he needed no one really and he was fine but then basically loosing his grip on reality.... at the very same time. and then when clark managed somehow to rid him of what what inside him, all he wanted was to have him back. and he pretty much did anything just to see if he or any piece of him was still around. anyways, nothing is really new...hmmm well my truck did get a new sound system the other day and the headliner and a black chrome fire extinguisher. oh and the roll pan got put on finally. hopefully this week goes by fast and well. theres a big science test thats on friday, i stayed after and make like 20 something cards. +_x, keith will be one in a little over two weeks. damn, gotta run. angelboy over and out