everytimethat i listen to half of my heart, i feel something within almostcave in, and for just a span of acouple seconds, i feel like i could almost, just almost shed a tear. my thoughts, i feel like i never did sent out and did what i said i could. i was too young and still am, though breaded and with a set of keys to a truck in my back pocket. i tried though, honest. i just couldn't do it and it was never the same. i wanted to go through the excitement and once again experience the almost nauseating feeling that goes into meeting and getting to know someone new. but it didnt wonk. it took me longer than i expected to get over myself and to see the larger picture but hey, hey i am *half smiles* alive. stupid backround thoughts, all in due time.