please, I just need today..... >_< so incredibly nervous

you are the earth beneath my feet, you are my gravity.

now you cant tell me that that wouldnt be an amazing line for a physics major ;].

fourteen months and seven days ago.... just kidding. yesterday, my brother lost my necklace and i dont feel right without the adding weight around my neck. i miss it and hopefully it turns up soon. so anyways, thought I finally got a card that a wanted but then i noticed a cease in it and now whenever I get the chance to summon it, the crease is all I notice, all I think about. (when it comes to that card) guess there's human nature. or maybe not even, maybe it's just that I take or at least want to always take care of my stuff but since it wasn't always mine that was completely out of my control. blah, the brings I collect, protected always. the crepper, god. I almost have to question as to who I'm refering to, the comicbook hero, monster even. or myself. that's probably all I'm seen as anyways. but fuck that, i dont need anyone. it started to snow today but I doubt that we'll even have a delay, hell, I don't even think that it's still snowing anymore. >_<. I weakness.. ha scars. haha, it's that I do honestly care too much. and chances are that I hardly cross their minds, ever. god, someone slapp me, please.

wow it's comin down in chicago ^_^ hopefully some of that comes to us. blah what a boring lonely weekend lol. friday, nothing, saturday, work, two pints, nothing. sunday, riley's at his dad's place so no Ed, Anthony, trading and dueling. great. at least we play at one though, and there's no way that I'm going to manchester this afternoon, just not in the mood. dhsgxhehxuenkfiejennwmw I think my aunt is leaving soon. god, I need to get out more....

When tragedy befalls you,
Don't let it tie you down.
Love can cure your problems,
You're so lucky I'm around.

Friday, great... you'd think that this would mean a night out on the town with the gang, or maybe even a movie and a BIG ass icee with a nice girl, no na. instead here i am sitting in the dark, drinking straight from a bottle of (dom domm dommm) carrot jucie. yeah i'm cool! >_< gonna say somethin punk?!? yeah... didn't think so. *sigh* this really does suck though. and facebook well, dead tonight. euwfewfbvwqkdwqdjnw2 lkmwqlk FUCK. one of Jen's coworkers is in the hospital with a pretty nasty infection in his intestines so she she went to check up on him. cute huh? lets think aloud, i havent walked down any hallway without a hoodie on in monthhs. and i like to comment aloud afew seconds after someone walks by, never anything nasty if thats what your thinking though. but i should probably stop since someone might notice and think that i talk to myself and think that im odd ot weird. hmm, wonder if i spelled that one right. like savannah walked by today and i was like, my goddd..... or when i held the door open for steph, gorgeous much? ufegyud3gu32hiueheh screw this, later peps

cute(ish) song from a loser, enjoy ^_^. truth is, i wasnt smiling.

suicidal thoughts, and I'm not talking about biggie's song either haha. ain't this grand?, oh hey.. look, the jet's just scored a field goal. good for them, though if they want to stay in this one, there gonna have to step it up and get it together (now). i wish i knew something different, something new.. to me. theres nothing to listen to, at least not anymore. i pretty much have the lyrics to all the songs in my ipod memorized, burned into memory (like everything else). and I'm sick of it. alright, enough of this bullshit, i have to get out of this, i know that I'm better then this, better than that. lyrics


Another party with the same kids,
Another night with the same drinks
I need to find myself a new chick
I need to kiss a set of new lips

She's gotta be something new to me
A fresh face, someone new to please

today in class we spoke of our dreams, most talked about money, cars, and houses. though when hooley asked what was mine, though almost reluctant to say aloud. i just simply said, "i just know that i don't want to be forgotten. the class then went quite as he explained something. i think he was somewhat taken back from what i said. and i guess that my dream is also in a sense what I'm afraid of most. my greatest fear. whether it be through my family or by people in general, i just know that i want to be someone. and though I'm not sure of what I'd have to do, lead or say in order to always be around. i tried

"you know what guys? i think i'm gonna take a walk." "you sure?, you've been drinking" "trust me... i'm sober now."