i swear I'd light this bitch just to watch it fucking burn =/. i feel so frustrated, tomorrow should be an alright day. yeahh lets just say that enough times so that maybe it'd get through to me. i don't know what the fuck to do but i know I'll do something. i AM gonna get out there and make something out of this weekend. this week went by so fast, just like the month itself. what am i doing you ask? listening to steve's songs and trying to control myself. *sigh* i need (and yes i said it) winter already. want to know something random? that you wouldn't normally know? well come closer...... lol closer..... i try to stay away from using words like never, always, forever, need. really, i don't like those words. and i use to use them so often. probably no one will read this don't i really dont care right now. I'm doing this for myself. things will get better, you'll see. ha. i really did think for a second that i need a cigarette but screw that. i haven't touched one of those things in over a year a think. i wont go on...... i still believe, i still believe, i still believe in (evol)