i swear I'd light this bitch just to watch it fucking burn =/. i feel so frustrated, tomorrow should be an alright day. yeahh lets just say that enough times so that maybe it'd get through to me. i don't know what the fuck to do but i know I'll do something. i AM gonna get out there and make something out of this weekend. this week went by so fast, just like the month itself. what am i doing you ask? listening to steve's songs and trying to control myself. *sigh* i need (and yes i said it) winter already. want to know something random? that you wouldn't normally know? well come closer...... lol closer..... i try to stay away from using words like never, always, forever, need. really, i don't like those words. and i use to use them so often. probably no one will read this don't i really dont care right now. I'm doing this for myself. things will get better, you'll see. ha. i really did think for a second that i need a cigarette but screw that. i haven't touched one of those things in over a year a think. i wont go on...... i still believe, i still believe, i still believe in (evol)

Confession is step one Change is step two Problem is everyone forgave you, expect you

I did it, but its not like it never happened to me. But yet does that make it right?. Ugh, im too nice. Fair is foul and foul is fair.

She's gotta be something new to me, a fresh face, someone new to please. (I hope)