i swear, you better be alright. i don't understand why every time i fall asleep, your dead. all i hear is "my best friend is dead" =(. and it worries me, you're not picking up your phone. i felt so alone. in the dream i had the red motorcycle again and i was going fast, so fast that the cars around me seemed like a blur, it was as if they weren't even there at all. no helmet, i think i did it on purpose, to drown out that one repeating thought. but it didn't work. all i could think is, my best friend is dead. now the road was through trees, like there were trees on both sides of the road. i looked forward and one tree stood out. to me. i wasn't even thinking then, but i shifted up a gear and went for it. but then last second i turned. the bike skid and i rolled. somehow i wasn't all that fucked up. but then i sat up, and made my hands lock behind my neck and there it was again. "my best friend is dead". gone, why. why.... =(