I should have said something. I waited right there at the door but she didn't see me and walked the other way. Then alex put his arm around her neck and again I wasn't scene. Its okay. Goddamn does this hurt. And I really don't think a cough dropwill help. I wonder about the ski trip. But yet im not sure if I can even go because im not in their ski club. The mountian looks nice. But I won't be with chandlyr and brad and im not sure I can talk to them for long. About what? Im not sure. If I do end up going (which I don't think I will be) I'll just have to keep talking.vann hasn't called me down for about two weeks now. In sage I would have scene mrs.ryan four times in two weeks. And in seventh grade I would have scene her 14 times in two weeks. Jen and I both want to go to mexico in the summer. Mother is against the idea. I wonder. Maybe? Sometimes? Never? Stupid questions. Jess wasn't in science class today. David dosent acr funny around me. Guess that's trust. Im good at keeping my mind away from things now. Well sorta. I can keep my mind busy with the things around me. I wonder what people are thinking of. Of how people feel. No one sits with me on a's at lunch. I don't know anyone here. Well I do but there were on different team last year and I don't think i could go over there without making an akward feeling there.some girl's brightly colored red pants just caught my eye. Erka really wants me to go to taste of chaos but I really don't ant to. And its not like I could anyways. I see jen today. I wonder what I'll tell her. She's funny and I make her laugh whenever I go. Wanna know something? Kurt warner is father to seven kids. And his number on his jersey is 13. 713. Guess his wife and him didn't lol nvm. *smiles*.