*tosses coin* there goes my last wish of this year. i'll leave you to guess on what i wished for

If someone tryed to talk to me about mental health back in 6th grade I woulda been like wtf are you talking about? People do that? Why? I don't understand. Now I get it. I had a small headache and idks just sitting on my bed. Listening to some kanye tune. Ugh, horrible thoughts much? Gotta get these outta here. There's so much marathons on tonight. Kays, better. Less thoughts. Hope is warm, look, flame on.... <3

lyrics in my head? well i already said it but give me what i could never ask for, give me the drug you know im after

Ohh snappp! That was the best thing I've heard all day =p "you droped something".... what? Your facee!" lmao. Im in a good mood so backk off. Just got naileddd by the empty wave but gotta think of what kahtia told me. Gotta keep my head above the water kids. Sailll boat! =D

That was the funntest thing ive done so far in vacation? shoving the snow? wow me. oh i guess thats the 2nd because driving was funner. angelboy over and out

All i can think is "give me what i could never ask for"

I guess I jinked myself by saying I'd be happy today huh? *sigh*. Lmao though. When I heard jen say its gonna snow half a foot I thought " its official, god hates me" he dosent? I once again thought this posted and this feels like it could have beem one of those days blog. I like the way my eyes look. The thought in my mind is when I fell asleep on her. I have no idea how I thought about it while shoving the snow. I feel so warm, anyone want to feel my embrace? Angelboy over and out

I can't hear him cry =/ I feel new to this world and its strange. I barely woke up so im weak and I can barely open my eyes.toy should be up by now, I wonder what he's up to..... kays well its 6:20 there so he could be in the shower or "fixing" his hair. Then later one within the next like half hour he could throw away the trash and then cook cita something to eat. *smiles* mexico. Life there is slower. But not anymore. I wonder a lot if roy will move here and spend the rest of his life here but that's unlikely. I asked him last summer if he would and he's unsure.but I think his answer may change. I think imma do the usual on this day. sleep right through the new year. Its sorta my thing. I remember last year's new year. Clearly. My phone was being stupid and thee text wouldn't get through. A saleen or a roush? Choices choices. Darn, wanted to find something t otalk about but my good links haven't been updated yet. Hosital today for my brother and then I think we'll go get me a little something.

That was the wrost thing I've done in weeks. =( my tummy feels horrible. Had two mouthfuls of nyquil, lol that was so much of the bottle but ughh. I hope this makes me sleepy soon. =( goodnight kids

I can feel inside me what makes fuels this black flame blog. Its something so dark and from what I've experianced its endless. I don't want this. If I focus real hard will I be able to turn it all into well butterflies? Drama. Back in sage people were true. People we closer, and happy for the most part. Movie night and all. But there's no going back. I must change the image in my head.I won't become that boy. Not as long as I can fight it. I won't. Believe in me, its 1:16 and I still can't fall.

What's on my mind? Cartmen =p "how do I reachh these kidds?" new years eve huh? Its 12:50 and I just can't fall. Feel like there's something I should be doing, or should have done, or someone I should be with? Strange feeling this is. My room's a mess. Oh, cabin. Papers everywhere, maps, books piled high..... soon. Jen's been waiting so long for this friday. I hope I catch on quickly. I miss jen, haven't talked to her in two weeks? Laying on my bed reminds me of how johnny depp got killed in the first nightmare. Much more to write but w/e fuck it =D

What didn't take too long now did it? From 8:15 to 12:15. Yeahhhh it did O.o!!!111! I don't ever wanna use limewire again. Its a messyyy. I guess I didn't get a call back? Sleep well at least little one

Today I can honestly say was the first time I've ever cut my face shaving.

I feel like all i have are these questions, i know it isnt true but gosh

Should i turn the lights back on? It use to make me anxious.... i wonder what it'd do to me know but maye it wont do anything now? no, i think i'll just keep them off.

should i changed the red arkham backround to the winter arkham?

i really hope i dont miss maybe a possible phone call because ive been playing part time daddy since jen has a cold and cant touch him and mother has had to go out and =/ he's a tiny bit of a handful

Goshh, what's with me and these headaches? each day I get one the size of canada and it sucks. You know the ones where it hurts to even look at the light? Yeah those and ugh. Send me an angel to kiss my forehead and make it go away? *covers up in bed*

Lets lie next time shall we? i think that'd be for the best. whats a few white lies anyways right? i rather not lie but i'd creep out afew less people that way. its 3:29and um awfully bored =/. oh wow, cold shiver. last time i had one of those was in studyhall. i really dont know what to say. umm the jets are looking into our old head coach. i wonder what vann is thinking right this second. my science teacher is at that stupid island. i'll leave you guys to guess which. i want to get out of here so fucking bad. i could...... walk to ad's i know the way from here. but it'd take me hours. and it'll be dark soon. i'll try that someday =). it was kinda cool how i saw the way there. sorta like a bird's eye view. since all i really do when in a car is look outside the window. so i know my way around. i wish i could go to the train station and when im there buying a ticket i'd just say "surprise me" and hand over the money. that's be fun. maybe i'd want to board one of those coll trains were i could sleep in. wtf, watery eyes? sunset... there goes an other day.

Today's wind is nice. Tad bit very cold but I like the way it hits me. I wish....

welcome...

Can someone please hide the sun behind a cloud? Its too bright in my room to sleep. I wish I were at mi tia's place. I'd be in the basement with the fire on in the fire place and throwing darts. I hate gas fireplaces. They aren't even that hot and you can smell the gas (easy) and it makes me light headed. Oh...... reminded of of six flags. Don't know how. I got the boot from mother's room because keith and mother want to sleep. Well keith was already asleep. What would cloud do? Answer: take his motorcycle out for a spin.... too bad I can't even hit the streets legaly yet. Sorry, got lost looking at a drawing. Bryan over and out

Is it a happy thought? The picture in my head? The boy leaning against a wall with his hand out and well there's a butterfly right above his hand. I know its based on an icon but to his I changed the butterfly. Its made from fire. Makes it prettyer to me. =/ well im gonna go now.... watch batman or something lame

Want to know one superhero wiped outta his mind? Gl himself. Green lantern =p

What a crapy knight's rest =/ like four and ahalf hours of sleep. I knowww imma take a nap. Like I basicly woke at 4:30 and then I was struggleing to fall back asleep the rest of the way. =/

I never thought I'd ever say this but I miss sage. People were closer and things were so much better then. I wished I could relive it at least once. But that's not a reality. There's just now and what's ahead.... the future. *sigh* *walks away and holds out hand, waiting to see who takes it* angel out boy

feel like I haven't listened to this song in a while now. Anytime. Jen dosent come back untill 5:30? She's working at a soup kitchan with lindsey. I wish I could take the car out for a spin. I told father that if I had a motorcycle and a helmet that the cops wouldn't catch me if I didn't drive like a mad man. I said that because I once walked out next to the kid with the cycle in the parking lot. Maybe im listening to the wrong song huh? *sigh* mother always asks me if you've talked to me. I just try to avoid the question. I picked out a simple black layout for my photobucket. Looks nice. I think I have 1118 pictures. So a lot. Im thinking of what tifa said. About if cloud were there everything would be okay, he'd stand there that cocky way that he did and tell everyone what to do and say "everything is under controll" he's always away. Fighting his other side. Too bad. I don't want to be cloud. Jessica and michelle told me that I remind them of edward but I wonder in which ways? Is it my amazingggg good looks? *laughs* idks. Want to know the thought that just crossed my mind? It was an icon I posted months ago, "if I went crazy would you still call me your superman?" Ohs again I thought this posted. Anyone follow this? Over and out

No good deed goes unpunished? That's just not fair. But yet I guess I'd know about what's fair. Dauymmmm for not having any super powers batman is ownnning. I like this ghost. I wonder if he has any comics.I thought I posted this? Well today would have been one of those days. Damn.

Kays so im here sippin on quick and watching the good justice league. Like has anyone scene the new justice league? Its sooooo watered down for kids that its not even funny. I mean I thought the batman was wattered down but the new justice blew my mind. Its almost wish time. Now it is. *nods head*.

Breaking news, I'd spell there's names if I knew how but the head coach of the jets and lions got fired. Im sure the coachs of the browns and bengels are soon to follow. Im still watching over my little brother.

Shhhhh! Mini me is sleeping. I wonder.... does he really look like me or is everybody just trying to be nice? I don't know. That reminds me of my ppt, tell you all about it later. Oh and I can say now that I held him five times

Vann's right. my other side wont let up telling me all my wrongs, what i should do. but i dont have to listen. i do a hell of a job breaking myself down. but what normal person would do this to themselves? spiderman? wtf, the cunning warrior quote from spiderman one crossed my mind just now. now that reminds me of when i went on a huge rant on spiderman three. thought i like found the reason for everything. lame huh? an other random thought, how jacob phased ion front of charlie. jen's up? i can hear someone moving upstairs. imma go see, later folks

ugh, way to go bryan. times like these is where i wish i were jean from x men three. just shut up bryan. like go away. completely. get out.

Truth is, when i heard "You are every reason, every hope, and every dream i've ever had and no matter what happens to us in the future, just know that every day that we were together were the greatest days of my life" all i could do is place my hand over the pocket that held the piece of your broken bracelet and just hope that in that moment you thought of me too

Morning people, wanna know something? the oldest man ion the US died today? he lived 112 years and 208 days. thats so long huh? older than edward. yeah leave it to me to say that. the sky isnt so blue today. i really hoped the lions would have won their last game pof the season yesterday but nope. they became the very first team in nfl history to lose all 16 games of the regular season. our first playoff game is jan 11. i still wonder blog. i guess thats why i named this "wonders"

me again. its 11:10, so alomost wish time. kays well that takes care of that. im listening to finger eleven. now im talking to rene on aim. i guess ne loves girl very much. i havent scene jen in hours so i guess she's asleep. i sleep funny? i will wake at 6:15ish and can stay awake utill almost three am and i bet i'd wake at nine am. my thoughts are sluggish but the same thoughts. sisters, gotham, little brother, pittsburgh, saleen. i think i cross the sister;s minds at least three times. that otays to say? i got otays from ben. he moved back to texas. i can see the cross sorta through my shirt. my my right wrist i always wear four wristbands. a thick batman one, a whs one and two thin black ones. im school i sorta wear five, the team edward one. just to see who it may spark a convo with...... i got a text? at 11:18? could it it from kahtia asking how i am? imma see, one sec. yeps it is. lets say im fine. am i? i want it to be the 30th. making a stop to the apple store in the mall. walking to it i know will bring that wave to me. walking by that bookstore. do you remember? *sigh* the first time i went to the movies alone after well you know i felt so bad. i was so use to buying two tickets that i really did buy two tickets even tho it was just me alone. some would say its a waste of money but it made me feel sort okay. sleep well little one, dream big

Blue fixs well with black huh?
i guess this is m y third blog.
not really sure why i made it but
i like it very much, yup, yup. *sigh*
no i cant think like that, i cant.
do the rules of being strong apply now?
well my day was "the usual" we shut out the
brows 31 to zipp but at what cost? ben got a
concussion. byron should have been praying from
the start. well all if not most of our starters.
we need em for the playoffs. but looking at it on
the other side, at least ben has like what? two weeks
to gt better. i joked with jen and said those 15 minutes
was on the ground was the fifteen minutes the steel city
stood still. blog? its okay to wonder if she ever thinks
of me while with him isn't it? *sigh i need to keep this mine.
i tryed calling joe just to talk shit with but i think maybe he's
still at his dad's place. so many wonders i have on my mind. i kinda
see it like lighting a new cigarette but then having to put it out
before it touches my lips. i have to cut my thoughts off short. um
on a happyer note have any of you ever watched the notebook? (i know...
HUGE chick flick) but its reallyy good. wacthed it rhe other night with
same and jen. keith wore the hoodie type thing rhat mom gave em with the ears.
i like it tons. he smiles tons in his sleep. yesterday i feel asleep at around three?while we were wacthing one of chris rock's standup things, funny stuff by the way. well i had that falling dream. you know the one where your falling and right before you hit the ground you wake? well yeahi had one of those and it was exciting *smiles* i jumped. (like i did in i am legend) do you remember? well i guess im gonna go talk to jen or mother, angel boy out

Looks like he's needed....
(ihopeiam)