beautiful, powerful and heart wrenching

everytimethat i listen to half of my heart, i feel something within almostcave in, and for just a span of acouple seconds, i feel like i could almost, just almost shed a tear. my thoughts, i feel like i never did sent out and did what i said i could. i was too young and still am, though breaded and with a set of keys to a truck in my back pocket. i tried though, honest. i just couldn't do it and it was never the same. i wanted to go through the excitement and once again experience the almost nauseating feeling that goes into meeting and getting to know someone new. but it didnt wonk. it took me longer than i expected to get over myself and to see the larger picture but hey, hey i am *half smiles* alive. stupid backround thoughts, all in due time.

please, I just need today..... >_< so incredibly nervous

you are the earth beneath my feet, you are my gravity.

now you cant tell me that that wouldnt be an amazing line for a physics major ;].

fourteen months and seven days ago.... just kidding. yesterday, my brother lost my necklace and i dont feel right without the adding weight around my neck. i miss it and hopefully it turns up soon. so anyways, thought I finally got a card that a wanted but then i noticed a cease in it and now whenever I get the chance to summon it, the crease is all I notice, all I think about. (when it comes to that card) guess there's human nature. or maybe not even, maybe it's just that I take or at least want to always take care of my stuff but since it wasn't always mine that was completely out of my control. blah, the brings I collect, protected always. the crepper, god. I almost have to question as to who I'm refering to, the comicbook hero, monster even. or myself. that's probably all I'm seen as anyways. but fuck that, i dont need anyone. it started to snow today but I doubt that we'll even have a delay, hell, I don't even think that it's still snowing anymore. >_<. I weakness.. ha scars. haha, it's that I do honestly care too much. and chances are that I hardly cross their minds, ever. god, someone slapp me, please.

wow it's comin down in chicago ^_^ hopefully some of that comes to us. blah what a boring lonely weekend lol. friday, nothing, saturday, work, two pints, nothing. sunday, riley's at his dad's place so no Ed, Anthony, trading and dueling. great. at least we play at one though, and there's no way that I'm going to manchester this afternoon, just not in the mood. dhsgxhehxuenkfiejennwmw I think my aunt is leaving soon. god, I need to get out more....